Emotions

February has been an especially difficult month for me emotionally. A dear friend's child has been beset by mental illness issues -- we think. We cannot understand what has happened. We just know that her child wasn't getting the help that was so desperately needed. After yet another round of hospitalizations here, the decision was made to place her child in a long term mental health facility. I hope and pray that this stay provides the answers that are needed to help her child get beter.

I do not have any sisters. But God has given me two 'sisters' here on earth. This sweet 'sister' has had to handle more in the past year that most of us deal with in a lifetime of family issues. I have felt her pain so deeply that I have sucummbed to that evil demon depression for a bit of time -- once again.

I am feeling much better today. And that is due in large part to the ministry of my worship director. He brought Regi Stone into our church this weekend to miniter to the choir/orchestera. I didn't want to go on Friday night, but I'm so glad I did. We had the opportunity to write our own psalm. That started the tears flowing. God put a wonderful friend beside me and she spoke His words to my heart. God is good...all the time.

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I have been very down in the last week. My sleep schedule is WAY off...so much so that I missed a haircut and color. Now that should tell you something.

My youngest is NOT getting the support he needs at school right now and I'm more paralyzed than anything with the frustration and disappointment in his classroom teacher than anything at this point. He and I worked on homework off and on all weekend long. Not a realistic set of expectations for a 5th grader.

My eldest had a good weekend. My mom had to go to the ER for at UTI and help w/ pain killers and antibiotics. Hubby is busy busy and I am depressed.

I start a 6 week parenting class tomorrow w/ my co-facilitator. I've done all the administrative stuff tonight. Now must get clothes ready and get my bag packed. Have to BE there @ 8:30. and Im NOT a morning person.

Accomplishments 1-4

A blog buddy is posting all of her accomplishments daily. Whew! I"m tired just reading it! She has had some ups and downs in the past few years and (like me) has put off dealing with the stuff that accumulates when life is hurtling along and all you can do is run to keep up. She's cleaning and it's inspiring.

In the same vein, but seemingly unrelated, our pastor preached a wonderful sermon today. It too is about life changes that can have an accomplishment attached. I have to get out of my comfort zone...learn to talk to people I don't normally have conversations with. Now that will seem completely impossible to my eldest child --- that there are people I don't know and that I've not already had a conversation with them. HA. He insists that we're one of the last families out of church each week. It's true, I love to talk w/ friends there...but that's NOT what the pastor was emphasizing. SO....

One of my goals to accomplish this week is to talk to someone (not from church) that I do not already know. There. It's in the blog and I have to try.

But back to my blog buddy's list of accomplishments. She's listing her accomplishments, no matter how small. So here goes:

#1) I did NOT nap today. I know Sunday's are good for afternoon naps, but I had stuff to do and I stayed away from the bed.
#2) my youngest child had to make a poster for school. We got it done with time to spare!
#3) I am caught up on laundry. In fact...I did some laundry that had been set aside as the "when I have time and no OTHER laundry" pile. I got two things in that pile taken care of this weekend.
#4) I have taken my injectable medication for almost a week now REGULARLY and that is a TRUE accomplishment.

My goal for this week is 4 more items. Don't know what they will be, but I just want to do a few things that will make me feel like I'm changing for the better.